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I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty happy about the fact that we don't have any babies at our house. This is a new feeling for me. I have spent the majority of my marriage trying to have babies. The first time I miscarried Scott and I had been married less than a year and it wasn't that big of a deal to me because I was sure it was a one-time thing. Fortunately my next pregnancy worked out and we got to have Celeborn but none of them have worked out since (and I lost track after number 4 or 5). Trying to have a family has been the main issue for nearly 15 years leading us through many "fun" fertility treatments, foster parenting, and adoption.

But here I am feeling really content for the first time ever! For the first time in my life I can see a pregnant woman and not hate her. I can hear a woman say that she is not happy about being pregnant and not wish that she would miscarry so she would shut up. I can hold a baby and enjoy the fact that I have to give it back.

I am really happy to be back in school. It is hard work and every now and then I think about quitting but I am nearly half way through and that is really exciting to me! I look forward to the adventures Scott and I can have once our boys are grown up.

Now that being said, sometimes I am afraid that this time is going by too quickly so I've been taking mental snapshots to remember life right now because some things just can't be captured on film.

- Celeborn and Aragorn sitting next to each other in church. Both are writing in notebooks but Aragorn is leaning up against Celeborn. -click-

- The sparkle in Eomer's eyes when you tell him he is doing something really well. -click-

- Scott and I sitting in the sun on the deck talking about nothing and everything. -click-

- Celeborn chasing his cousin Acel around grandma and grandpa's house. Their laughter is like magic. -click-



For our date Saturday Scott and I saw an amazing play called Little Happy Secrets. Go read about it on his blog!